living

well...i made it through the first month! only 5 more months of waiting and then i'll be freeeeeeeeeee!!!!! after hearing about how quickly sandra bullock got divorced, i wish i still lived in texas since it's only a 3 month waiting period there, but oh well...my patience will get me through.

each day i become more and more comfortable with my new life...almost excited! i'm trying and doing things i've never thought i would do and really enjoying life! my new job has been challenging, but i'm learning a lot and building confidence as an aquarist. i've decided to plan fun work events with another coworker to build relationships outside of work and to have fun together! last week, we went country line dancing and sang karoke...and i actually SANG karaoke, which is REALLY out of my comfort zone, but i did it, and i had a great time! another night, a friend from college invited me to go to a bar and listen to a band (the band was awesome...a mix between jazz and soul), and again, i had sooooo much fun...met some new people and got to listen to some good music! i planned a little get-together for my birthday (actually, krysten convinced me to and even told me where i should have it and what i should write on the invite...thanks krys), and although not many people showed up, i still enjoyed the time i spent with the friends and coworkers who did come. AND last night, i went salsa dancing! what?!?! i NEVER would've thought i would do that...but i did, and am anxious to go for more lessons and really learn so i can enjoy it!

i'm slowly getting to a place where i'm not scared of the future...i'm not afraid of being shut-off from the world. these past few weeks, i've learned i have to let go of my insecurities and just LIVE! i owe a lot of thanks to krysten for encouraging me, and sometimes telling me to snap out of it, and take a leap of faith with others!!