every day i work, i clock in, and think to myself, "just 8.5 hours...i can make it, just 8.5 hours!" that should indicate how much i LOVE my job (insert sarcasm here). i've been really struggling with my dissatisfaction with my current job. i feel it's a dead-end, i'm stuck in cement boots, can't go anywhere. do i give up a full-time job and sacrifice that security for another opportunity that may lead to something better, or do i continue "wasting" time? this past week i had 5 GLORIOUS days off from work, 5 days away from the non-motivating work environment, 5 days away from the drama, 5 days away from my broken dreams AND IT WAS SOOOOOO WONDERFUL!!! but 5 days was not nearly enough. within the first 2 minutes of being back at work, my supervisor caught me up with things i had missed, and i felt myself drifting off and thinking "ohhhhhhh, i remember...this is why i hate my job so much!"
i didn't get the job in texas, or florida...i feel like doors are closed for me there. so now i continue to be patient, continue to let God open up opportunities and lead me in the direction i'm supposed to go, continue to LIVE for the moments where i know i'm going through all this crap at work for a reason, for the hope that ONE DAY i will reach my dream of working with marine mammals.
continue to hope...
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