Keith Urban song

with all the good that's in my life right now, i still have times where i am reminded of my past, the past i wish i could forget. but the fact still remains, i can't erase that dark part of my life, i can't undo my foolish decisions, i can't forget about it and pretend it didn't happen. questions still flood my mind: "why did i settle? why didn't i WAIT to experience what happiness is REALLY supposed to be? why did i waste sooooo many years? why..."

this past week, i was listening to pandora at work and a keith urban song came on. usually, i don't really pay attention to the lyrics, i just enjoy the music to make the hours go by more quickly BUT for some reason, this song caught my attention. it took me back, back to the heartache, back to the emotions from betrayal and unfaithfulness, back to my dark, dark hole in the ground i thought i would never get out of. while i was listening to this song, i kept thinking "how come i never heard this song while i was going through everything?" i felt my heart beating faster and my breath getting short. music was therapy for me, but this song never came up. and it's a good one!!

you can listen to it here. the best lyrics of the song are

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy...

It took a while for her to figure out
She could run but when she did
She was long gone, long gone...

i'm sooooo thankful in this past year i've seen light at the end of this dark tunnel! it used to be i would see glimpses of hope or light, BUT now it's reversed...i live each day for the hope and light in my life and only see and experience small fragments of darkness. i thank God for His faithfulness to piece together my fragile heart and continue to bring beauty from ashes!!