rough day

today was NOT a good day at work. let's just say, at 3:15pm, i was curled in the fetal position CRYING on the phone with krysten. i'm sooooo tired of all the seaworld politics...i'm soooooo tired of wondering IF i'll ever accomplish my DREAM...i'm soooooo tired of being beat into the ground...i'm sooooo tired of being disrespected and felt like i can't contribute ANYTHING to this company and its animals. after i got off the phone, i convinced myself to get through the last hour of work, repeating to myself "you're ok, you're ok...pull yourself together, lisa...you're fine." i walked up to someone in animal care, and looked at him and pretty much BEGGED if i could touch a dolphin...just a little rub down, to get my heart back to WHY i'm going through sooooo much crap...why i'm being treated like an incompetent human being...WHY i wake up every morning hoping i'm ONE step closer to working with dolphins. and this animal care person, the person i believe GOD Himself, has placed in my life for these moments, led me to the dolphin pools and allowed me to do a training session with male dolphins and then a play session with the babies...and the cracks of my heart started to fill in...and a warm smile, a smile that's not forced, but REAL...from the heart, came across my face. PRAISE GOD for the little moments!!!

please pray for me...today has broken down the wall of strength that's taken so long to build up over the past few months. please pray for my working environment...my boss is a VERY difficult man to understand and work with/for, and i believe nothing i do will change his perspective of me. please pray God will continue to strengthen me and NOT let people walk all over me. and PLEASE pray that someday soon, i will reap the benefits of all this hardship and pain. there HAS to be a light at the end of the tunnel...there has to be...